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Not that this isn't usually "personal;"

I'm in the process of making a short film about loneliness with my best friend on an Arri SR2, and it's been really difficult to come up with ways to convey that, especially since I'm making it with him. He makes me feel less lonely than I've ever felt before. I'm so excited for the chances I've been getting to not only produce, but to collaborate with him.
I've battled with anxiety my whole life, and this time in my life, for many reasons, is helping me learn how to channel my fears into excitement and productivity rather than letting them turn into crippling anxiety. He's helping me a lot, and even right now, for instance, I'm afraid of making a shitty product because I'm dry on ideas, but instead of letting that make me shut down, I've got to use it as a sign to consume more art, to find inspiration in the world around me, even if that world sometimes gives me anxiety.
Along those lines, I'm also in the process of going off my SSRI. I've been prescribed to it since I came back to college (after dropping out); I was eighteen then--I'm twenty now. I've taken many other steps recently to nourish my body more naturally, and as maybe kind of part of that, am taking it upon myself to peter off of my prescription and see how I can handle life without drugs. I'm not going to be scared. I'm letting myself be excited about it, whilst not abandoning the notion of it maybe not being time yet and having to go back to them. Things will work out the way they're supposed to, and I'm going to see how things work out off of my SSRI.

I thought about attempting to make this into something more like prose; there's time for prose another day, or, who knows, maybe even later today. This is just thoughts I wanted to share (with nobody, let's be honest).